I feel so horrible without you
that 'having you' is the thing I want the most
and 'kissing you' is the only thing on my mind
But then again, when I had you
'having you' was the thing I hated the most
and 'kissing you' didn't seem so tempting

I'm so stuck in between

I want to kiss you so badly
that I get goosebumps everytime I think of the moments we shared
But then again
I get goosebumps everytime I think of how horrible I felt during those days

I'm so stuck in between.

I can honoustly say
I have never felt
so bad
so screwed up
so afraid
so lost
so head over heals in love
without you

I'm starting to realize
I'm nothing without you
And that I let go of my world
the moment I watched you leave

Some of those heartbroken-lovesongs
can just slap you in the face
'cause they describe
exactly the way you're feeling.

How can heartache just strike you
when you least expect it?
I thought I was over you
but now I just want to kiss you so badly
and realizing I can't
makes me just want to kill myself
even more.

Maybe I don't know much about
history
math
or whatever they say
But I do know
that it will be damn hard for me to forget you.

I guess
everything changed between us
after all we've been through together
I guess
in a while
i will mean nothing to you anymore
if I ever meant anything to you at all

Just when I've got the feeling
you left my mind for good
I remember those days
when you were still mine
and the way I felt while you kissed me
Realizing it won't ever be the same
and I will never feel the way I felt
those days.

Maybe it's not worth all this pain
Maybe you're just not worth all this pain.