You don't get it though do you? I'm not afraid to be with him. I'm afraid that if I am with him I will lose him

Lost love is not a discouragement, rather, like an encouragement; by losing love and feeling the pain, you know that you can love, and that someday you will be loved.

It's not the quantity of time you have on earth, but the quality; I'd much rather spend one day making a difference and doing the most and the best i can then spend 100 years being too afraid.