Yesterday was never there
and today i can not feel
and by the time tomoro comes
my skin would have felt steel

I must forgive before i forget
cry without a river of tears
love like never before
and get hurt a trillion times worse:(

Feeling so lost without you here to hold me
two very different worlds caliyde
is it really that simple

This world causes nothing but
pain, hurt and betrayal,
and if your not one of the "it" people
you are nothing
why do we even bother
we are still judged for who we are

I thought you were everything i wanted
everything i could possibly meed
but i figured that in the end im still the same
you have left me here with nothing to gain

Behind this smile is nothing

but this is not what you see

And i sit back and wonder what it feels like to live ... to be alive ... to smile and laugh .... to be carefree ... i think all theses things everytime my wrists bleed

I was burnt alive in my dream the other night ... funny how our minds always speak the truth yet our brains try to hide it .

Thoughts of suicide have always crossed my mind -- forgive me if this world is something i dont want!

Thoughts caliding
trying to escape
brain twisting
her lifes at stake

squirming and screaming
taking none of it in
too sad to give a shit
depression wins