Thoughts of suicide have always crossed my mind -- forgive me if this world is something i dont want!

I was burnt alive in my dream the other night ... funny how our minds always speak the truth yet our brains try to hide it .

And i sit back and wonder what it feels like to live ... to be alive ... to smile and laugh .... to be carefree ... i think all theses things everytime my wrists bleed

Behind this smile is nothing

but this is not what you see

I thought you were everything i wanted
everything i could possibly meed
but i figured that in the end im still the same
you have left me here with nothing to gain

This world causes nothing but
pain, hurt and betrayal,
and if your not one of the "it" people
you are nothing
why do we even bother
we are still judged for who we are

Feeling so lost without you here to hold me
two very different worlds caliyde
is it really that simple

I must forgive before i forget
cry without a river of tears
love like never before
and get hurt a trillion times worse:(

I no longer care about what you will think
let my cuts bleed freely for you are nothing