Maybe I was a little grumpy some days,
Maybe I said mean things,
&& yea I may have done things to piss you off
But put that all aside
&& I sware to you,
That you'll never find someone who loves you as much as I do <3

Its been about a month since we have been apart && it still hurts more than anything to know you wont even think twice to check up on me to see how my life is without you....?

By the way Im more than totally
B R O K E N without you

In the beginning I thought Loving you hurt..Now that I've finally let go..I see now, That its killing me to be without you </3

I guess what they say is true "You never realize whay you have till its gone"....I just wish I still had it because I knew what I had since the day I fell in love with him...I just want him to come back </3

Ive sat here replaying all the old voicemails you left me...as tears slowly fall down my cheecks </3
...Its the only way I hear your voice anymore ='[

...He has blocked his friends out of his life..he has thought about suicide..
Ive tried calling him...His life doesnt have to be this way..Ill come back...If he needs me...I love him && I just want to see him happy...<3

&& its funny how the littles arguments he used to pick with me..made me so angry..but now that I can no longer say we are together...Ive been dying to atleast argue with him one last time...just to hear his comforting voice

& Its funny how after he breaks my hearts, all he can manage to say is "Im sorry"
Like, just because he apologized everything is okay....
He always expect his "sorry" to makes things better...Why cant he see it doesnt?

Its too the point..being without you totally destroys me
But being with you breaks me into little tiny pieces....
I just have to figure out which one hurts more...</3

Got A Bottle Of Pills Filled To The Top..
Now I Dont Care About Life,
Nothing But pain since he has left...
So ill just let it stop

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