They think she is crazy,
but we know she is just in love<3

I hate closing my eyes,
because im afraid in just that second you wont be there when i open them.<3

& the reason i cant move on is because...
i have nothing to move on to...
..i foolishly gave it all up for you....

I want him to be happy.
but at the same time i want him to remember me everytime he is with her..
& when he is holding her,
i want him to feel like its not the right person in his arms....
i want him to miss me...

My mind is saying "Come on get out of there quick! He is HURTING you"
But my heart says "I cant let this slip away. I love who he used to be"

& all that night she whispered "please God, let me hate him!"

She looked him in the eyes & said "you are permanent for me"
& he said "so why dont you act like it"
she replied "..because I am not permanent for you.."

...how do i not hurt him? he is like my "Jacob" from twighlight...he is crazy for me...while i sit and pray i could feel l the same way...he stays around for me, while i break his heart....

I wish it was still easy to love you...
but its just not and I dont know how to go back anymore....

& at some point along the road i realized "im sorry" just wasnt good enough...it doesnt take the pain away...