I pretty much love you more than I initially planned <3

Its really pathetic,
How I keep holding on to something thats not coming back

Ive learned that GOODBYES will always hurt...
pictures never replace having been there,
memories good or bad will bring tears,
and words can never replace those feelings </3

Sometimes it hurts alot more
To smile infront of everyone,
Than to cry all alone </3

Im trying my hardest to keep it
T O G E T H E R
but im slowly F A L L I N G apart

------------> </3

I know what it feels like,
to want to die
How it hurts to smile
How you try to fit in when you cant
How you hurt yourself on the outside
To try to kill the thing on the inside
All because you lost him </3

Honestly I spend most of the day sitting on IM staring at your screen name waiting for you to get on knowing it wont happen,
as I cry my eyes out </3

& the fact of the matter is she just wants to be the girl he just cant live without....

Even if i dont want to
i still catch myself loving you...

I want a guy
i can run up to in p.j.'s, messed up hair, no make up on and hear him say....
" Baby your beautiful"