I thought about you again...

This is a nightmare,
I'm not awake...

Can you please slow down?
I can't keep up...

Mother, what is there to do,
My mind is broken my heart is bruised...

Sometimes I wonder if there is more than 3,
and if there is, I am less than thee...

The bruises never heal,
The scars never fade...

Today I lost my best friend,
I had always assumed there would be no end...

Black tendrils slithering relentlessly...
Wrapping throat, brain, lungs and tongue, a vice...

Sweet as sugar, strong as spice,
You hurt me once, I fool you twice...

Pull, pull away.
I cannot wake up to face the day...

As I watch my life through my eyes,
I have no choice but to sit idly by...

I promise to love you forever, even if it hurts,
Loving you is risky, albeit, what is loving you is...