Why are you still in my head!
I truly wish i moved on instead...

Your intriguing smile, I dared to pursue.
What it is that attracted me to you...

Clarity in motion,
Smoke clouds have cleared...

Why does my heart flicker with a light?
Is continuous vulnerability i fight...

Today we would have celebrated your 68th birthday,
If only i could spend one last moment with you i...

One day I stood in darkness,
And asked myself...

Haunting my dreams, my thoughts and my fears,
Constantly struggling to hold back my tears...

Exhausted feeling broken,
Through words left unspoken...

I bow my head and pray to you lord,
protect our family and allow us to move forward...

I refuse to accept, any fake or feeble attempt.
In pursuit to win over my affection...

I began to see,
A different man standing before me...

So hard, difficult & impossible,
Nothing ever clear easy or simple...