Your Silence cannot protect you*

You'll never know how deep in a hole you fall when someone you love leaves. you cant feel anything but dyingness.. you lay there to bleed.

Missing you looking at me in that way. missing when we shared our day. missing your touch and your beautiful smile. I wish that it would have been more than a while.

Seeing you do the same things you did to me. seeing you with another girl when you said me and you were always gonna be. Seeing you kiss her and spend time with her day and night. Makes me wanna get up up
f-ing FIGHT!

You will always be my other half. You knew how to always make me laugh. You are like a sister and always will be. I will miss you from heaven to the sky and over the sea.

I dont know why I love you. I dont know why I care. because when you walk pasted me all i get is a stare.

Drip. Drip. there it goes again. I dont know who I am and its not pretend. I cant stop cutting deep into my skin. My breath is dying.. its getting thin.

Your pushing me down into the dirt. I cant feel anything but hurt. I wish that you could look at me like you did thoes days. I just wish it was going like our old ways.

The only person that can get away my tears.. is the only person that isnt near. The only person who knew the real me. Had to be the person.. that I cannot see.

Its fathers day.. as I stand by your grave. I wish that was somthing that I didn't have to say. I wish that you could be here tonight. Then maybe id enjoy this day for once in my life.