Lately it feels like time
has kicked up her skirt...
To the sun, I apologize;
for the moon, has my heart...
Springs Lost Beauty...
They tore my wings like zephyr
-and I; I sat upon that one...
When you write of
- pure silence...
Surrender of a
soul to indifference...
Laying there in fading summer jazz sunlight,
it seems your floor is a meadow...
Eighteen years I have,
breathed fire upon lady beetles...
The moonlight blisters my lips;
unconscious of time...
" And my life ends, ends my pride and glory
In the drafts I am not, not a line nor a...
Heart
t r u m p s...
"All that we are is the result of what we...
-Buddha...
I...
You know it wasn't my decision to be here,
In fact I never even had a say in the matter...
Reflecting upon times that are past,
I measure my growth in leaps and bounds...
Daisies and Butterflies
Smile of daisies and butterflies...
There's a gun pressed to my temple
So old it doesn't work...
I watched her walk through
dew pearled roses, wind softly...
No matter where you are- how far you've gone
In the same way, you'll find a mournful dawn...
Promises are just trinkets of deception ,
cleverly crafted with no hidden exceptions...
Mirror mirror on the wall,
How many more times do i have to fall...
As darkness engulfs my heart;
remember me tonight...
I remember
those nights i lay inbed crying...
Oceans away,
A world of your own...
These days, I find myself here more often than not
I told you my reasons, then somehow you forgot...
Never confuse stubborn and strength
One makes you wither and one makes you last...
You opened your chest so I could see your heart...
Hiding under sheets of skin are stories waiting to...
Sometimes in life you must reach a red light
in order to understand what you truly need...
We were friends but i loved you from the start...
and i don't even know why i'm trying anymore, it's...
I've come across a fork in the road,
don't know which way to go...
Sometimes,
when the wind eases...
The Long and Winding Road
Sometimes I see a ray of light...
Never to unravel love with the existence of a true...
It's like bringing rain into a summer time...
As sorrow drifts among my dreams
And night fades in to gray...
I never noticed her, just two stools......a way;
we both sat with bleary eyes...
You burned that Bridge,
And you're left now with the ashes...
Isn't it funny how one day you could have the...
how you use to laugh and fight with one another...
Don't tell me what your doing
Don't tell me know where you are...
You'll lose friends, like blisters pop.
&you'll find out which ones are true, and...
The rear view mirror broke today
Enough of the past it said...
Can we just play in the rain?
Words come better that way...
Apologies bite my tongue
so swollen that they can't escape...
Best friends are supposed to make through...
and make it through whatever life can bring...
If I died tomorrow
would you regret this fight...
Get out the picture,
blow off the dust...
I know its killing him inside,
he know that for a fact...
Like roses blooming in the spring and dying in...
All good things must come to an end...
You see the group of them
You wish you could belong...
Seems that no matter what I do
You're always two steps in front...
You are beautiful
Don't you forget...
A love once had now dazzled in dust,
A lack of reliance, a lack of trust...
So many nights, she listened to me cry; I swear...
How do you use someone who doesn't benefit you in...
We always said we'd write the ocean
her very own love songs...
How cruel is a heartless promise,
now that you don't feel for me...
It's a terrifying sound when you can't fill your...
A song even worse when your heart speaks in...
"Arise, fair sun, and kill the envious moon,
Who is already sick and pale with grief"...
I close my eyes
And dream about...
I don't understand why things happen to me
can't wrap my head around the things you don't see...
#1
Girl loves boy...
I can be the stars ,
That light up your night sky...
I thought what I was doing was right,
I was being led on by my own deceptions...
Death comes knocking
Full moon shining bright...
I wish to dream the day away
Lost in thought of yesterday...
As I lay there in your arms ,
I'd never felt so safe and warm...
You turned my dreams to apathy
Hating me...
Never did i think in million years you would...
Those words you uttered, have been imprinted on my...
I pray, God, you will be kind to me,
And not let me sink into misery...
If my heart stopped cold, stopped beating, could...
If I took back all I'd said and done, could we try...
Blossoms rustle in the wind
Crocus bright and thistle blue...
TJ's puzzle of love
Alright TJ listen close...
I want to find my heart
an anchor...
Tell me lies and call me names
When you need I'm here to blame...
Let the wind soothe me,
sweep away all my mortal encumbrances...
Realization Release
A heart aches from broken shards crumbling into...
The day I needed someone most,
I turned and saw you there...
Little broken record,
She still sings her same old song...
Shut up and control the crying,
be a big girl the way they want...
While ancient stones carried with snow melt go by
Still my form did quiet starling's lonely cry...
I see those rainbows forming,
Deep inside your eyes...
~ For those of you who know me you will understand...
For those of you who don't know me ... I would...
I am the backwards God;
the streets...
Whisking soft scents upon horizon,
Orange holds eyes within its glow...
Hide-and-seek hearts
have a mind of their own...
Some people say
that little girl is perfect...
He sat rocking, slowly back and forth
Hands a little shaky now, not like his youth...
Do not love me
do not care for me...
When happiness is just a dream
In memory's distant past...
Liquid screams
And cocaine dreams...
Shooting stars embroider dreams
Cloud collage not what it seems...
Fortress of stone
Isolated around her heart...
I want to know who you are inside,
And did you ever care...
This pain is now my torture
and i don't know what to do...
As she reads the words he wrote,
Her teardrops fall like rain...
Bury all your memories
Of me and what we shared...
I fell apart, but you're free so no longer will...
You gave to me hope and showed me love...
I heard it's whats on the inside that counts,
But I never really had a care...
Is forever just a word?
Because I think it is...
I wish it would rain
So that I could go outside...
I am,
Is living and the price I bestow in my vindication...
Do you think I'm ready to make nice?
While there's this burden breaking my back...
This peice is about believing, and how I once let...
It seemed liked not so long ago,
But now it's been years...
I guess I'm lazy
yeah thats me...
(I just broke up with my ex - this is just...
How can I speak of things that I want to hide...
Song - slow tempo
When you left before, I wanted control...
Lonely and hurt,
Broken I remain...
The young girl hides many lies
she hides the scars deep...
He was beautiful,
then ugly...
You built these walls around you
To try to encage yourself...
Quivering by the corner of her bed,
her heart trembling like thunder...
Promises,
oh promises...
I want to ruin you...
I am but the rotten core
of an apple, love-bites from falling...
She aches for the beach
that never seems to come...
My hands are two tiny ants
crawling over meadows...
Life is a mystery
dreams, an empty well...
Some colorful leaves still cling to trees
Though many more have gone bare...
If I tell you to sleep with open eyes
Will you still dream of me dying...
A poet cries
Screaming for words...
Impressions
By Mark Spencer...
Comparative Analysis Of Judgment And Truth
By Mark Spencer...
When I die please tell the world that I wanted...
That I tried my best to explain life...
Waking with this horrible, banging headache
fearing I'm about to lose my mind...
No moonbeams fall from the skies
upon a soul beaten by lies...
Pedagogues write the words
for the course...
Invalid statements spew
from thorny lips...
Depression--how strange it is for you
to visit me. I tried to stay clear of you...
Please don't go away
Leaving me alone...
Love always ends
The story is nice while it plays out...
Nothing ever distracts these thoughts and the...
even though I try so hard to numb it all they keep...
The soldier squared his shoulders,
as he slowly raised his head...
Death leaves no beautiful corpses,
as is to watch you leaving...
I place a newspaper next to your pillow,
with headlines near your ear...
Walked away and heard her say she'll never stay,
fell apart as they looked down...
I drift along a quiet river
settled there a sometime ago...
Cedar scented memories
under lock and key...
His palm became my dictionary
emended by pastel lines...
My ears miss you. If they could, they would cry.
My ears miss you. Not to hurt, I must try...
Sit here among the thorns of change
No time inside the soul to cling...
Each day i walk
but i'm not awake...
Promises are meaningless
pretty words said to inspire faith...
I'm wrapped in lost memories
With scars and bruises to bear...
Maybe I'm the only liar between us
I threw our love out in the rain and watched it...
I need the medicine to reverse what's been done
Cuz all that's left of me are remnants...
I will never belong to you again
Not that I really belonged to you back then...
Summer dwindles to its conclusion
Autumn steals away her warm glow...
She laughs to much
so you cant see the tears...
The <> marks in front of sentences mean a...
Lonely and Perfect
Lonely are wolves without a pack...
As I lie awake, I dreamlessly dream about...
The air is cold...
What else am I left with, but knowledge,
and memories ridden with pain...
Sometimes you think your falling,
To where the departed go...
I lace up my chucks and I throw on a scarf,
Who knew these cuts would leave more than just...
Intangible dreams of happiness
Broken heart like a weight...
I believe we fear eternity
as we are too unstable in heart...
I once,
placed his heart...
"This could break my heart or save me"
I ask for forgiveness...
Aimlessly,
I sail the milky way...
There is something
about Winter...
Place me,
a stone nymph...
Time is slipping from
my hands, such that...
No one wants to be alone
Yet all are lonely...
Quietly observing the laugh
Quietly absorbing the pain...
Wake up my friend, sun is ready to rise
Dawn has brought, may be a new surprise...
In the eerie depths of my hearts ocean,
Your name screams through the drowning tears of...
I remember, one time, sitting on the wall watching...
I remember, you told me you loved me. Up there, on...
We used to sit on those rusty swings at the park...
It always rained back then, big, fat, heavy...
Atlantis is in the bottom of my bathtub...
Atlantis is this pretty blue-green chilly warmth...
Seventeen years of washing a window
with the grey sunshine tears from her eyes...
We were driving, the music was so loud. You hate...
Where the hell were we going anyway? I don't think...
When I told you that I shattered,
I wanted you to glimmer...
You're beautiful, but I'm drunk,
which makes you the fucking hypocrite...
Slept the day away
and here I am...
Seven thousand and one thoughts
scattered like diamonds...
He dialed
911...
Is it hypocritical to say
I just need to be near you...
You asked me how I could afford
to stuff so much love into such...
Senses fade
into the white of the softness...
Sometimes, I like to sit out at night
and stare at the big round moon...
I think maybe
I'll bite my tongue...
You were my summer sunset
and we chased the cherry blossoms...
You can always turn it up
(tune them out...
It's those highlighters I hate,
the ones that you colour everything with...
It's nothing
really...
It's a little bit darker,
hiding on the other side...
My absolute favourite thing to do is close my...
It's funny, 'cause it all started such a very long...
I got to thinking, today, when I was sitting out...
What's it like to be dead...
He's just another guy...
Darkness surrounds me, though it's bright as day
I remember each moment as you walked away...
Your words they taunt me, your voice it stays
Inside my mind, intruding my ways...
I'll look away so you won't see
All that I pretend to be...
This piercing glare falls to tears, another piece...
My heart is crumbling, fading away, ceasing to...
Awake, alone, combating my thoughts
Silence invades as my mind only rots...
The worry of silence crept its way through
I looked in your eyes to know what to do...
A shiver lurks, creeps through my soul
It breaks a heart which was once whole...
The quiet seeps through as it calms my nerves
Quickly I counter what purpose this serves...
This night's misfortune, tomorrow's despair;
Nothing to blame but this lingering air...
The movie theatre taste
is dangling from your lips...
You're feelin' sick, 'cause
your stomach is sprawled all over thin ice...
It's nice to know you're always there
(until I don't feel you anymore...
Some nights,
I kiss the nightlight sweet dreams...
If I threw up confetti
and pushed together the scraps to make...
Those three unsaid words
crash like thundering bells...
My heart shimmered into a thousand pieces
and sparkled like the sun...
I'm at a standoff with God,
choosing not to believe a lesson...
You're a line
and I'm a string...
My God,
you must feel like...
Cut the tassles
and the hearstrings...
I can't sleep,
so I can't dream...
You're begging me
to throw up all my beliefs...
Sadness is splattered on the wall
alternating swirls of...
I am...
I am fifteen years, one month, and six days old...
Too much Sunday
shot up into a vein...
I fell asleep last night,
dreaming to the sunset...
You asked me for my words
I silenty surrender my soul...
So be charming
with your tasteful tongue...
Darling,
I can't stand the state...
When time squeezed with it's midnight hands
darling, it was as though you clasped your fingers...
Lost
to a mirage of stars...
Your heart
fell...
I suppose it was the way that golden star
reflected her light...
I keep expecting you
to dazzle me...
I miss him-
and not just those hands...
It was a gradual unfolding,
the listless dimming of love...
Please, don't leer at me
with those well acquainted lines...
Like all the men
I've ever adored...
Love, like nature
has its teeth (all pointy with malefic intent...
Scribbling...
Inevitably I'm a mess;
with my emotions all strewn about...
It does me no good
to muse over frown lines...
It just so happens, truth
can make a heart clearly see...
I heard a song today,
it spoke of love...
I could have loved you
with all the originality of truth...
I loved him
(still do...
Love always ends too soon
corrupting lies with truth...
I feel like a star
cast amongst this ambiguousness...
Yesterday,
...............you called me pretty...
Little black boxes
and pumpkin cars...
I used to
believe in illusion...
On either sides of the window lie
long streets of lights, where life...
As bright lights went off, waiting for a wild...
that takes nonreturnable parts of my heavy mind...
Deleted
d...
Dancing with sweet feminism,
above cemeteries of barren fields...
In my book there are old yellow
pages, with fading ink on...
Kneel for the patience of this challenger
for I lasted nights and days in your hell...
A woman has strengths that amaze
she can handle trouble, carry heavy burdens. She...
Life gave me my grade today
I thought I deserved better but I guess I thought...
Never will I forget the laughs
The fun times we shared together...
I Knew Joy
A smile adorned my face...
Can you taste the irony?
Feel the weight of the world on your head...
These words and these poems
These melodies and notes...
Here in this red notebook
Darkened scrawl, depressing thoughts...
Now the pen's on paper
What words will burn out now...
Im dead.
But i have no grave...
When pain has tipped the heart of glass
And time finds no relief...
She floats inconspicuously in a minefield of...
gravitational pull forcing her upwards and...
Rain slash slithered down
the window pane...
Time is at a stand-still,
'cause we're not moving now...
Seems like a long year
since yesterday...
So go get high
with your beautiful friends...
Welcome
to the withdrawal...
I shuddered through the symptoms
of an early morning breakdown...
Question:
Do you love me...
Once, when we were younger
I painted everything red...
We spend the entire hello
saying goodbye...
It's funny how the
seasons change...
My everything feels like
lead because of...
We could sail away through this
desert...
Erase me from your memory
with the click of a mouse...
Drifting into the expansiveness
of the moments when you once...
You can take my pieces
when I explode...
You carved our names in paper -
And...
The sun broke down inside your eyes
And left them burning blue...
Your words are worth as much
As the lips they fell from...
If only time would run like a river,
yet into the opposite direction...
When the coldness
that comes along with emptiness...
They questioned my sanity
for I feared not...
"Love is the only force capable of...
-Martin Luther King, Jr...
Stop.
Close your eyes...
They say getting back up is easier the third time...
It isn't...
Shatter my silence within the four walls of mind,
For sepia images of you have become intertwined...
The forgone
dampens my bones...
Reminded I am,
by the constellation of stars...
I am no angel
for I have broken many hearts...
I never wanted anything irrational
until your jewels tickled my tongue...
I am no good at waiting
so I immerse myself...
All of these poems
beneath my skin...
I love the way you clasp your hands
deep inside of me...
Being pretty has only got me so far
Right into your arms...
Beginning of the End
All stood still...
He still hasn't called,
I check the dial tone again...
Because
is simply not good enough for him...
The end of love
shouldn't linger ever so long...
It was the way he smiled
with those eager blue eyes...
I could bask along the shorelines
of a man's aquatic soul...
Love is not
for the weak-hearted...
I wrap myself in a dark embrace
in hopes that that panic will subside...
The alphabet soup sky
keeps roiling and boiling...
It's nine twenty on a Thursday
and all I've got is a bowl of...
Welcome to a tomorrow
that keeps slippin' further from your...
I was once
in love with a mail carrier...
Butterfly murder
and welcome to my dreams...
I wavered for one microsecond
in the everlasting future...
I've got a
bottle-blonde brain...
The rain came on Saturday
but bit its stubborn teeth into the morning...
Sometimes,
no always...
He said
"I think we need a break"...
I read somewhere that
one should never write...
Tentatively,
(unfurling like...
(you only have one moment)
...Inhale...
I'm falling through that half-asleep confusion
where the shapes and sounds blur to one...
I met a boy who spent the wee hours of his...
Then, I realized...
You may look at me with eyes askew
With tears parting lips heavy thoughts accrue...
Enigma plagues unknown answers-
of what has transpired of this love...
Radio plays another mindless song
that I'm relating to our mindless situation...
I stem from roots where lands
never kiss the purity of rain drops...
October was;
the death of fireflies...
For once -
I no longer loiter sidewalks...
My mother once said
if I chase curiosity...
Today, I realize
that you are far...
I've heard whispers of Paris lately,
the city of love and some place foreign to me...
I watched you twirl,
clutching the hem of a...
Today the sun was rising with a bit of
shyness, struggling in the midst of dark...
It was only when I
rested a teacup...
I do not own exquisitely worded phrases
that could possibly explain why...