Why now,
WHY ME???
Haven't I hurt enough?
Didn't he cause enough pain?
Did I not shed enough tears?
Shed enough blood?
Or must I endure more?

My hand itches,
To pull it across,
My bare wrist.
My eyes burn,
To see that blood,
Trickle out.
My nerves scream,
To feel that pain,
From my splitting skin.

Don't sit there and preach to me,
About all of this,
Because where the hell were you,
When I needed someone,
NO WHERE TO BE FOUND.
So I finally took it upon myself,
To give in,
Since you couldn't take the time,
To really care......

There is something here,
That wasn't.
Something that lurks,
In the shadows.
Waiting,
Watching.

I can feel my heart,
Tearing in two.
I can feel my soul,
Creeping into blackness.
I can feel my spirit,
Screaming in rage.

We had love once,
But some how it slipped away,
Never to be found again.

Wiping away my tears,
I mask my feelings,
For the first time.
But it won't be the last.....

Old wounds open....

old scars become fresh again....

hearts bleed once more....

today mine has...

It's been so long since i felt this way,
So free and alive,
Like a child in their wildest dream.
I feel it everytime I look into your eyes,
And pray it never goes away,
That I never lose this feeling,
This love I've finally found.

How can you love someone so much when you've never even seen her beautiful face? That's what they call a mother's love for her child...