Someone please just help me get through this nightmare

I cant believe after 8 months I had to end up. But you gave me no choice.

It's funny when you die, how people start listening

Even if your hands are shaking, and your faith is broken, even if your eyes are closing, say what you need to say, and do it with your heart wide open.

Its gunna be okay
these thoughts will go away

thats what i tried to tell my self
but it didn't work out that way

There's always something there to remind me</3

That bottle of pills never seems so right until now.

I took a few too many pills tonight
in hopes that my pain would become outta sight
instead i almost killed myself
sad thing is, that really woulda helped

Tryna get through this, don't know how i'll do this, i know that i only got myself to blame, but that doesn't help to ease the pain

I'd just die if I couldn't see your face.
Akon- Come Back To Me