As the phone started ringing I ran up stairs waiting to hear her voice- I just never thought that the last words of that conversation were going to be its over I've found another.

Tried to show you I was ok that things were finally back to normal ... But then you went and f 'uck3d it all back up ... Great now my hearts just been put back in the same space ... With me on the floor and a blade in it's proper place

Never meant for it to end up this way ... This war between youre heart and mine ... But it wasnt our choice it just wasnt our time

Its the little things u taught her, with the kisses then the hits. The whole u put in the wall where her head had once been. The night she said no but u didnt take that answer. u taught her to believe she deserved her scars and the sh!t u put her through.

Today seems to be the perfect day, to start fresh, begin a new, and pretend I never loved you

I tell myself that I' m over it and over you again and again. Unfortunately I' m going on week two and still it' s not true.

I know in truth that I will feel better, once the pains washed away by the tears, and my eyes learn to hide these fears. I know in truth that this is my hearts final trial, and even if it kills me, I am going to smile.

Sometimes I just wish I could get you out of my head, and forget all that was said.

And the tears began again,
From a text message sent by an @$$40L3 and a so-called friend

And to both of them I'm just some toy.