[trigger warning: eating disorders...

I thought the heat would
be suffocating today...

You used to unnerve me.
Until I didn't care anymore...

I drive there,
then sit in the parking lot...

I went to the grocery store the other day.
I didn't plan it...

I am one of the lucky ones.
I do not have to cower in clubs...

There are ways we talk around
her, taking shameful steps...

I never knew why I was here,
in this dimension...

we can only live for so long
on a scorched planet...

Driving on a dirt road,
the sun, a brazen signal...

I used to prefer
nonexistence...

I don't know how many shots of vodka
I've had, definitely more than two, clear liquid...