despair has me in a chokehold;
my lungs fight for a chance at survival...

I feel like I've lived a million lives in this...
traversed a hundred different landscapes and...

I protect myself from the monster
in as many ways as I know how...

What does you leaving feel like?
It feels like telling you I'm afraid of the dark...

You got up hours ago at 9 AM with a contented...
Today was a dreamless sleep. Sometimes I prefer...

Safety is security,
a promise you'll always be there...

I wish it could all be different.
I wish fear wasn't two-faced...

Do I feel guilt? Of course I do,
but this time I do not let it consume me...

I still can't believe you're gone,
but I can't let myself miss you too much...

The warmth should inspire me to live,
but instead, it feels like a dreamland...

This place is full of ghosts
and I'm shaking and shivering...

It was the one space we were
working to make safe...