Not going to let the night defeat me.

My mind is a monster to my body.

I try to inform you of how I am, but then every trivial part of my day turns into something I could have done differently [your way].... a lesson that can be learned even when I am the only one involved and know how to never cross the problem again.

Stop drowning yourself in your past.

Okay, day. I will be up tomorrow to greet your sun. To let her know she has a friend. And instead of retreating back inside, feet rolling on vacuumed carpet, I will photograph your beauty and share its glory.

Stop making what was meant as good intentions, into a comparison that has little validity. Respect with an attempt at understanding. Think before you speak, before you hurt those who offer their lives for the heart of their country.

You deserve painless victories, without rheumatic bones and abnormal skin temperatures. I know nothing of your illness though. I fear your separation from her yet you whisper, "love is universal; love is life and life is a reflection of love."

In my heart of hearts I believe forgiveness is everlasting and for each human on this earth. But I alter between days, going back and forth in my mind: "It means me, it means me not."

It's time to open my heart up, seek the help my broken self yearns for. Oh God, now is the time. The time to heal.

Last night, my mama said to me, "you're not a quitter, you've never been. You're stronger than you know. You can't go through the rest of your life

alone."