I tried calling out to you,
anchoring my words to
your steadfastness.
But you never answered.
[I didn't realize I was underwater.]

I just needed you to believe in me
For one moment more
For one hour more
For one lifetime more.

could i have prevented you
from walking away?
could i have been better?
more responsive?
more agreeable?
more happy?

Were you ever real?
I ask myself this after a night of too much vodka.
I can make myself believe anything at this point.
You existed for someone else.
You were never meant for me.