I wish I could tell you what Im thinking. Problem is, it would contradict everything Ive said.

I don't understand how this thing they call love, can distort reality so very well.

And Im sorry if my smile is fading, I just dont care anymore.

And you said youd never let go. I never let myself believe that phrase before you came along. Now I remember why.

Yeah, I miss your smile. But day by day, Ill learn how to live without it.

I guess the shock is beginning to sink in. When I laugh-at anything-I start crying. When I hear your name, I want to runaway. When I think of your kiss, I want to scream. Sean, why did you have to do this? What did I do that was so wrong?

And when I saw you with her, something inside me began to ache.

Sometimes I just want to apologize for what you thought was my messing up. I want to call you up during the middle of the night, and tell you how wrong I was. But then I shake my head and roll over, because in the end, I knew what I did was right.

Nobody says it out loud, but its there. Im not good enough. Not for their standards.

So I was driving down the road, thinking about how screwed up my life really was, when all of the sudden I realized there were only two yellow painted lines keeping me from colliding with oncoming traffic.