'Ive always felt like this, so nothing will ever change..'

She says she's been where Im at,
So why won't she understand?
If she knows what I feel,
Then why doesn't she get that a few simple words from a stranger won't change the way I feel about myself.

I wont ever understand how you got over all this so quickly.
I used to think I actually meant something to you.

Do you think I enjoy being moody? uncontrollable? unfriendly? and cold?
I hate this! I hate myself! But I just need someone to love me, or understand, or just listen!

Im sick of switching between pretending to be happy& showing the painful truth of how I feel. I try to be happy, But the pain shows through. I hate bringing down everyone else around; Besides, Im sick of people asking "Whats wrong?"

Youu either move on,
Or You just keep Breaking..

Always planning my next escape. Cant settle down, Cos I wont face realityy.

Well Actually,
To me everything IS a competition. The only way I can feel complete is when Ive torn apart someone else's dream.

Selfish [1] or Insecure[5]?

The most powerful people aren't those who boast their superiority,
But those who play the victim, Knowing that they'll gain power slowly but steadily, And surely.

How am I meant to move forward, When the voices in my head won't let me forget my past?