Well Actually,
To me everything IS a competition. The only way I can feel complete is when Ive torn apart someone else's dream.

Selfish [1] or Insecure[5]?

Always planning my next escape. Cant settle down, Cos I wont face realityy.

Youu either move on,
Or You just keep Breaking..

Im sick of switching between pretending to be happy& showing the painful truth of how I feel. I try to be happy, But the pain shows through. I hate bringing down everyone else around; Besides, Im sick of people asking "Whats wrong?"

Do you think I enjoy being moody? uncontrollable? unfriendly? and cold?
I hate this! I hate myself! But I just need someone to love me, or understand, or just listen!

I wont ever understand how you got over all this so quickly.
I used to think I actually meant something to you.

She says she's been where Im at,
So why won't she understand?
If she knows what I feel,
Then why doesn't she get that a few simple words from a stranger won't change the way I feel about myself.

'Ive always felt like this, so nothing will ever change..'

Unconttrolled maddness is created from misunderstood traumas

You're great at pointing fingers,
At everyone else but yourself.