Im never going to get back this time,
Wasted. COuldve spent it with you,
But I spent it lying.

I wish I felt as beautiful as they said I am.

I gave up everyone to be with you.
In the end it wasn't worth it,
But in the begging, it was perfect.

Saying too little is as bad as saying too much.

</3 ily.

It hurt to see you hurting.
It hurt even more to realise that I was the one hurting you.

I learnt today this was all just a game to you.

& You were never playing fair.

I dont want to tell you everything about the way I really feel and how Iam.

But I dont want to fool you into thinking Im a decent, normal, happy person.

If you honestly knew how I felt, Youd forgive me.
I dont mean to hurt you or push you away.
Im sorry for my lack of affection towards you.
I wish I was her... So you wouldnt hate "Me".

I hate that you're with her. But Im happy for YOU. Because I knew all along that you deserved better than ME.

Your life was supposed to end when I left you.

Like mine did.