Im Not Afraid to Stand Out, Im Just Afraid I Wont Fit In.

I want to say "I chose you... You are the boy that will make me happy, that will stop me from killing myself.." But its just not thay easy, is it.

Hes not a lover, hes my bestfriend.
He means more to me that a thousand lovers would.

I wish I had someone to go through this with.
Instead of everyone just watching me fall.

I understand that when people look at me they dont see a bundle of joy, But they dont see a girl who has lost it all and has ruler length gashes up here arm either.

Went a tad crazy with the kitchen steak knives tonight.

Oops.

Maybe you should forget about me.
The way that Im trying to forget about you.
Im sure it will be easier for you, than it is for me.
You have a life to get back to, I just have a dark hole.

I think its kinda sad, that no one really knows.

What do you do when everything turns to shit?
And you want to end your life because of it?

Am I the only one failing at life?