Have you ever sat in silence listening to the Wind? how free it sounds? how happy it sounds? and it is free to get angry... and free to be happy... its not trapped in hell like me ... why cant i be that wind i am so jealous of?

The pain i sit and deal with every day; the danger you put me in; the blame you put upon me; all of it... is hidden with in the smile you see on my face every day.

how dare you do this to me.

I dont want to hear that you miss me when you have a girl your moving in with.
I want to hear that you love me and want me instead.

But you will never go back to that day where you told me i was the only one for you.

Dont tell me that when your with her she makes you so happy. dont tell me that when you talk to me you worry about me and it upsets you. because if you really cared i would be the one making you happy.

Im blamed for everything even though its not my fault
i get mad for being blamed and with in seconds im told to get rid of that Attitude
i get blamed for being sad.

YOU ARE WHY IM ALWAYS SAD!

but just go ahead and blame me. you will anyway

How the heck do you expect me to put a smile on when i cant even bare to look at you, at me, at this house, at the world with out crying. so you can take that smile and shove it up yours because its not going on my face.

How hard is it to take a hint? ending everything with ... love you Buddy, i love you (as a friend that is) you dont have to worry about me you have another to worry about. why cant you understand that I LOVE YOU not as a friend but more?

I trust with my feelings
i trust with my cuts
i trust with my heart
you kill with out care
i cut with out feeling

If you really wanted me to be happy... you wouldn't be the one who took that feeling away.

To be happy again; a phrase i would do anything for. a phrase others take away with out care. a phrase that is so easy to advise to someone. one that is so hard to follow. happy, is now how i feel when i sit in the dark, and only see red