Messages from you saying, i wont rest untill your happy, is there anything i can do to make you happy? we will be friends for ever i love you your my best friend. did you think they would make it all better? Leave her...then id be happy

That single tear drop
that one that drowns my heart
the one that scares me.
that very tear drop that has forced me to
do something i have never wanted to
that single tear drop is now red.

Oops i wore short sleeve instead of long
oops i dyed my hair black to hide my face
oops i i didnt wash off my tear stained face
oops i didnt clean the blood
oops i cried to loud

-- how can these all possibly be mistakes...

I can feel people staring at me.
i can feel how they look at my arms
i can hear the whispers from others
i can feel the pain of their voices

yet you do nothing to help me?

You sit there in silence, then start talking once i leave
you stare at me from 5 feet away, then talk about me there

sooner than later im going to snap, i will crumble, my blood will be pouring out, yet you will still be talking about me.

STOP joking about cutting
STOP judging me
STOP looking at me like an outsider
STOP pretending to care when im around and then talking behind my back

your making me feel worse, your becoming one of them, i just cant anymore, so STOP

When someone jokes about loving me, i begin to see how much i dont have. i desire the lies so that i can avoid the truth.

i live for love lies.

I took my jacket off, showed my arm to the world...
you chose to look away, you ask about the cut on my finger but not the ones that cover my wrist.

just ask about it... make me tell you... I want you to know

You might not be my best friend, i might not even know you but if you see my pain and their effects, why wont you say anything? ignoring makes the cuts go deeper.

just ask me how i am... or if something is wrong.

Have you ever had to sleep on a wet pillow?
how bout dreaming your drowning only to wake up and your crying?
how bout going a week with out making another cut?

I cant remember the last time this didn't happen.