You give me something to sleep to at night

It amazes me that I was even able to piece my heart together enough for you to shatter it again...

&&Somehow,
as much as it is killing me
I just can't bear to
put your picture away,
hide your flowers
or turn off
the songs that remind me
of you...

My mind has already moved on

my heart however is still picking up the pieces...

I can look,
and yeah thats fun...
but it's strange...
i really dont want to touch unless im loking at you...

Sometimes when I'm alone, I pretend you there,
I hold my own hand, trace patterns like you used to
but still i just feel all themore helpless...

I worked so hard to be openw ith you, but you never appretiated it...

I would have given you anything and you didn't even care....

I dont turn off sad songs...
I dont turn off our songs...
I can't.
I'd feel like I was betraying all the good memories of us,
lies, though they may have been...

It hurts so much to look at you and know I will never be a part of that smile again...