I've found myself today
Remembering you...
Sometime around a year ago,
i lost myself, as well as my hope...
You cut b/c you care
About all the things they've done...
I just don't belong here
There's really nothing left to say...
Tunnel
Tunnel vision has got me down...
What is this i hold in my hand
its a sharp and shiny blade...
It's like screaming out for help when your about...
Left out in the darkness, no one hears your silent...
Lying in the bottom of the shower
Hoping I might drown...
There's a noose around my neck
There's a gash upon my wrist...
First one in awhile. I know, I'm rusty, but tell...
You beat me down
To the ground...
Whisper those words I long to hear,
Let me know you'll always be near...
"Hello Mr. Scissors and
Ms. Razor Blade." I see you...
When I said I want to be with you forever
I meant it...
I wish i didn't have to put on a fake smile
I wish i could go away for a little while...
You ask me who
do you really have no clue...
She was never pretty,
She was never liked...
He was crazy about her,
he would do anything for her...
Stuck in this dream
i just wanna scream...
So cold, I'm gasping for air,
Reaching out for a hand thats not there...
The sirens stop and all I hear,
Is the sound of my heartbeat to disappear...
The thought of death seems nice
to be free without myself with just one slice...
Her knuckles grew white.
As it flowed through her arm...
How long have I been in this storm?
I'm barely even living...
I thought i could handle this pain
i can't take it, it's driving me insane...
I will keep on writing to ease my pain
I can only write since it keeps me sane...
Today was unexpected,
Yet it happened all the same...
I'm trying to hold it together,
Letting the cold numb flood my veins...
One day I will find you
And you will pay the price...
That weightless heaviness
Always pushing me down...
Falling under waves of emotion
Drowning in all my pain...
Title : A Girl With Beautiful Mask
Written By : Fridus Blueheaven...
Dear Mum,
I'm sorry, Now I'm sure I must leave...
Tell me my 'love', Were you ever there?
Look sourfully into my eyes, Did you really care...
Tears crumble down my cheeks.
My mouth moves but I don't speak...
I'm sad but you don't know it.
I'm angry but won't show it...
If I vanished tomorrow and never returned,
Would I be remembered...
If only you knew the real me,
Then you would see how sad I am...
How do we forget someone
We once loved so much...
Who's that little girl in my reflection,
Crying and asking for some affection...
Heart ache
Tear falls...
While I dreamt of you
You gazed at her...
A girl once so whole
Is now broken and thin...
Walking around with a great big smile
This girl with such a "great" lifestyle...
I open my eyes
But maybe its better they stay closed...
The clock is ticking in my room
I wonder when it'll stop...
I smile every single day
I'm happy in each photograph...
Torn and helpless
Left to cry...
*Please read all of it*
What if you saw my arm one day...
*It's long but PLEASE read it... it's about me*
There she sits so helpless...
In this world that surrounds us
We sometimes brake down and fall...
My eyes are closing faster
I’m slowly falling to sleep...
*True Story... please read all of it*
She's searching for someone in whom to confide...
If only Danny knew
What she’s done to us all...
*It's sort of long... please read it though. This...
In a world so far away...
*Please read through it*
Lovely scars...
Forever broken, start to end,
Inside and out, Will never mend...
Everyday of her life
She walks around...
This is just what i belive, so if you are...
Everythings so silent
I cant hear a voice...
It was nearly two in the morning
When she decided to go...
*Some names have been changed to protect the...
Living in my nightmare...
My angel, are you there?
Do you hear my call...
The rain was falling fast,
The wind was blowing hard...
In the chilly morning
I see the sun arise...
That night I sat so still
Quivering with fears...
When life hands you lemons
"Make lemonade!ï" is what...
I walk into the bathroom
and quickly lock the door...
Have you ever thought about the past
And wondered what went wrong...
Whats tha point in living life,
if all it brings is pain...
What hope is there
For a soul that has died...
Empty words
Fill a page...
A black room sits in silence
The walls, so cold, so bare...
Some days I find myself trying to be happy by...
I sit there and laugh...