Last night, in a crowded club, people laughing, dancing, smiling. and i could do nothing but sit and stare into the emptiness in my heart. you've been gone for so long, but the gaping hole you left never disappeared, i still miss you like hell.

If we can still feel this way after so many years, if the spark is still that strong..then i was right all along. we DO belong together. and you are the only one i want for the rest of my life <3

I don't believe in god. but after 5 years of this, i'm begging him, please don't do this to me again for nothing. don't raise my hopes that he will love me, just to let me watch them fall.

I can scream it in your face that its your loss if you walk away. a thousand times over but it wont change. because i know its my loss. because you are amazing and i know there isnt another boy out there like you, who can steal my heart and breath.

I feel like i have been waiting a lifetime for the numbness to subside. i get my hopes up just to watch them fall. maybe it's true what they say..that you only get one love in your life and that i'll stay empty forever without him.

Tired of waiting, tired of being disappointed, scared as hell to love. but so desperately wanting to. crossing my fingers for the thousandth time that this will be it. that he will be the one to take my breath away again.

It's amazing how one moment can change a million after it.

You're there, you're just always there...in the back of my mind, in the corner of my heart, and i'm sick of it...i'm so f*%$ing sick of it.

Im over it. im over you. it doesnt hurt. this time im through. 5 years wasted and now im done. and i wish all i just said was true but its not because i cant fall out of love with you.

Beautiful boy with the broken smile. you run back to her, she'll keep you happy for a while. until she breaks you like you broke me, iv loved you all along, i'm here, and someday you'll see.