I chose drugs over pain,
Alcohol to hide the shame.
Solitude to forget them all,
Absence in darkness to fall.

When dreams fade and no hope remains,
All you see are the shattered remains of what you once used to believe in,
The only thing that kept you alive and breathing each day...
So tell me now what is there to live for?

I miss the way things used to be,
But I don't miss you.
I miss the person I used to be,
But I don't miss you.
I miss how uncomplicated life used to be,
But I don't miss you.

I'm going to show you what you mean to me
Even if it takes forever.
I'm going to tell you what I see in you,
Even if tomorrow may not survive.
I want you to know you mean the world to me,
You're all I ever want in life - you're all I can see.

I promise that I will forget you,
Cos I don't intend on harbouring these tears.
All you ever gave me was pain....

I'm trying to understand beneath the depths of my heart,
How easy it is to break things and leave each other wretched apart.
I cannot seem to fathom why I should accept this as God's will,
When even for a second I cannot even forget you still...

Waking to a new day but there's nothing good to think about,
As the shrouded pieces of my soul diminish without,
A single trace to try and amend,
Each and every mistake that marked the end.

Sometimes it's hard to see past the heartache that has bonded itself so well to your soul that no matter how hard you try you cannot shake of that feeling that somehow you have no one else to blame but your own self for that which happened.

Within the shrouded pieces of my dreams, my love and my thoughts I still cannot seem to see how I should still continue to hope. When days go by the pain in my heart continues to grow to such strength that depression becomes my only friend...

If this heartache could leave me for even just a second maybe then I could see myself as the person I've always been. Yet as I sit crouched upon my knees, silently wishing that I could erase everything I wish that death would extend it's hand towards me