It's official I feel completly hopeless

You all think I'm strong, and have everything together
But inside I'm really just a lost, little girl looking for someone to love her

I told you that I was depressed and sucidal.....in an email
I wonder what you think when you see me in person...
Do you look at my eyes and finally see the pain I feel

My life is slowly killing me
It is a tortorous death
So why can I not go ahead and end the pain

Maybe I don't want my friends to care,
It would make killing myself so much easier

My friend said sucide is selfish cause ur only thinkin about how sucky ur life is.........i realize that this is true........but i dont care.....i am perfectky fine with being selfish

How are you supposed to explain to your friends that you feel completly uncared for, and unneeded

When you feel that they dont care or need you at all

I'm not sure what to live for anymore.

How are you supposed to explain to your friends that you've lost your will to live?

Why is it everytime we feel emtional pain
We have a need to feel physical pain