I'm DYING!!! Not outside, but inside!!! I was free, but now I've been captured again!!! Look at me!!!! Look in my eyes!!! I'm gone!!!!!!!!!

I would have moved a thousand miles away just for him to still be alive!!!

I would do anything to just talk to him... other then actually walking up to him to start a conversation...

Now all we do when we see each other is smile and wave... never say a word, but yet it's for that one split second that I grasp to make my day perfect.

Seeing him always makes me happy. To see his smile, the light in his eyes... I always wonder if he thinks about the "good old times" as much as I do.

I'm so scared of being rejected by other people that I just rejected myself before anyone else can.

Even a beautiful rose has to have some days of rain to reach it's full beauty!

If I could have one wish that could come true, I would wish my best friends will get all they ever wished for, would be seen as the great people they are...even if that means they can't be my friend anymore....

I guess nothing lasts forever. I feel so broken, but there's nothing I can do!!!! And I feel so numb that I don't know what's real anymore!!!!

I guess I was meant to be a loner.