Gurl Why Are You Driving Me Insane?

I gotta try to fix my past to try to live for my future.

People say they are right by urside... but they are never there when u really need them right by urside.. :(

I never felt so alone in this world. even with the people around me. i feel so cold and so alone...

Hehe.. im smiling cause they havent found the body yet.

*mi amigo said this to me*

My worst nightmare i ever had and still am..
Is living my life.

Rip my chest and take my heart out.
Tear it. Stab it. Burn it. Trash it.
I don't care anymore.
My body is heartless already.
With no love to care.

I smile to you and I smile to her. Whatz the difference if I smile to the world. No one will notice im tearing inside. No one will see im dying deep inside.

Every moment I shared with you. Where the best in that time. Now that I remember them they just rip me apart.

Why does my heart bounds so hard against my chest. when im talking to you. when im near you. when i see you. why does it do that?