And I finally figured out that I am replaceable in your life and that you don't need me anymore...

I'm happy most of the time now but there are still days that I wonder why I'm still breathing. Still days when the metal calls to me to spill my own blood. No one else understands, it's a constant battle to just survive.

When we live our life nothing seems to change but then looking back on the past, everything is different.

You said that no boy would ever come between us but I never expected a girl to.

My best friend is a lesbian and it feels like I'm losing her...

I wish I knew that if I stopped talking to you, you would care but I know deep down that you wouldn't even notice.

Just because you distance yourself from someone before you say goodbye doesn't mean the seperation will be any easier for them.

I wish so much for her to break your heart just so you could know what it feels like.
But I would give all that I am so you would never feel that pain.

I dreamed about you again last night
We were actually still friends
We were laughing and joking
Oh how I wish I could have stayed in that dream
Just to be your friend a little longer

It's almost funny. I no longer know what dreams hurt more. The ones based on reality where we don't talk anymore or the ones that I imagine. The ones where we're still friends.

You say you want us to be friends again and that you will change but every time I give you a second chance you do the same old stupid shit.
So I've had enough of you.