And just like that, with one word, you can send my world spiraling into darkness and pain.

You say that I've changed but you don't understand, I just went back to the way I was before you were ever mine, I just wish you could love me when I'm like this...

I love him with all my heart and that's the problem...

I should have given my heart to my stuffed animal, at least it couldn't hurt me like he can.

I'm happy most of the time now but there are still days that I wonder why I'm still breathing. Still days when the metal calls to me to spill my own blood. No one else understands, it's a constant battle to just survive.