Is hiding my pain, a cowards way of not giving up?

Fake a smile, fake a laugh, just hide your pain for awhile...No worries.

The sad truth is, I could never forget you. I don't even want to forget you.

So I'm still holding onto a memory, that will slowly fade in time. A dream, never to come true...

So I guess I'll always be waiting for you.

I think I am getting weaker,
My perfect mask is about to fade,
I've held it up all this time,
My emotions have betrayed.

Tell me a lie,
Say you love me,
Sing me a lullaby,
And put me to sleep.

I am just a girl with sad memories from the past, pain that's always going to last, always crying, forever trying, inside dying, and sometimes lying. What else can I do?

It's the only way to survive.
I am not worth your pain.

So why don't you stab me in the heart?
Already am falling apart,
Kill me, and cease to exist,
and stab my knife into my wrist.

No matter how many times people say goodbye to me, no matter how much I've been hurt, I will fake a smile, and fake a laugh, cause I don't want people to know how much I am hurting...

Delicate little angel up above,
Finds she is very hard to love,
Crying tears that fall below,
And cries because no one knows,

I never knew I had so many tears...