In reality I know you don't want me and I know that no matter how much I love you that wont change. I don't blame you for my pain, the sleepless nights, the food I couldn't eat, nor for the searing pain in my chest...

If I was going to get away and get over you I'd cancel my phone, close my emails, and move away from here... but the truth is I'm not ready to do it... maybe after a few more years of suffering I'll be able to save myself...

The last thing I intended was for me to fall this hard again knowing this time, that you wouldn't help me up again....

I laugh to myself a lot because I truly never saw this coming... If I'd known I would fall for you and hurt this much I never would have wanted to be your friend...

Girl:> why do you have to make everything sound dirty? or say "you know you love me"
boy:> I dont meen to my bad
girl:> lol at least you know i love you
(after a long pause)
boy:> yeah and vice versa i hope

Boy:> I miss you lol
girl:> lol Im sure
boy:> I do
girl:> why?
boy:> cuz you make me happy
girl:> oh
girl:> I has brownie
boy:> I's has pizza
girl:> ...I've missed you too

I feel comforted somewhat by that... that you believe so much in fate that you don't believe it was my choice to leave you... or that I couldn't see you anymore but at the same time hearing that burned me... in the deepest part of myself it hurt.

While I'm incredubly proud of anyone who has the strength to leave an abusive relationship, I have to admit I'd be more proud of someone who is still in the relationship but able to admit they're being abused. cuz that right there is tough

I am a shifter. I truly have no set personality.
I could be just about anything I wanted... but it seems the one thing I can't be is yours.

(not mine I saw it somewhere and thought to put it up here)
Love isn't blind. It sees all and because it sees all it is willing to see less.