I gave you my all & as a result I have the front row seat to watch my heart break & a meaningful relationship with you fall .

I've wasted all my tears
Wasted all those lonely, lonely years
Nothing had the chance to be good, nothing ever could.
but, I'll keep holding on..

My problem is I fall in love with people I know I cant have or be with & I presume no ones at fault here but me.

I dont sleep.
I think.
I plot.
I plan.
I regret.
I rehearse.
I reconsider.
I dream.
I speculate.
I ruminate.
I wallow.
I worry.
I want.
I wish.
but, I dont sleep

" how can you possibly leave me with thoughts filled with you & sleepless nights .. yet i know i barely cross your mind at all ? do you know how that makes feel ? "

" once they stop talking to you ... they start talking abt you . "

" how can something thats supposed to make you complete leave you so empty ? "

" i've been through soo much BS that it haunts me .. it replays in my mind over & over again , I just cant get over these things & im not ready to deal with the fact . "

" it was foolish on my part , for feeding my heart to the sharks . "

" When you leave make sure you drop my heart at the door .. someone else might need it . "