Hi my name is Melanie=) I had been a member of poems-and-quotes.com before, but got disattached from it for quite some time. I enjoy writing and receiving feedback and comments from different people. It's encouraging. I have though deleted all the poems and quotes i previously had on here and well have started over fresh and am posting more recent and renewed writing. So needless to say at this moment i have very few to no comments and/or personal messages, so please feel free to do so and give any advice or any compliments on any of anything i post. ------
Since my last in on here, about 2 years ago,lifes been changing fast. lol as thats what it does best.
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Shit happens to people and it happens so fast and at the times in your life when you need it the least. It's been a hell hole mixed with being on a roller coaster, as stephen would describe my life... with a mixture of happiness. Parents are hard to deal with. That's a fact. And in no way do things get easier on their own. And that goes for everything. Watching others go through their own types of struggles can be difficult, especially when you love that person and you see them in such states that their in deep sadness or hurt. You end up feeling their pain and wish you could just take it all away. -------
A huge, i mean just a really huge supporter in my life has been my boyfriend, kent. He has been probably the most understanding and loving person i have ever came across. Not only can he really comprehend what i feel, but he's living through some of the experiences in which i've already gone through and still am. I am so grateful for him being apart of my life and will forever be. He makes me wanna live in each and every moment of life as if im free and alive. Although his struggls are a huge milestone away from what i experienced, we can still understand one another=) I like explaining life and things through words and with context, but with him i loose all my words and im left with just expressing and living and freely being myself, which makes me realize that maybe not everything needs to be given a reason or explanation in words, maybe you just have to let go at some point and see through someone elses eyes that there's more. =) He's the first guy I've ever come to love. The only one i have ever gotten so giddy and feel so fragile, yet safe with.-------
Friends. Well i have came across so many friends during my years in school and yet to say, but not sadly i have lost just about all of them. I picked all the wrong people to hang out with for oh i dont know practically since i was in junior high. They weren't friends at all, they were people to socialize and gossip with. You can't hardly call those kinds of people your friends. It was about 5-6 of us all in a group and everyone would talk about everyone else and then turn around and pretend to be eachothers friends and gosh that just made me sick as well as tired of being around those types of people. It's litterally exhausting pretending to be someone your not and being fake all the time to try and impress everyone else because well in my case your too proud to just show your own self and be who you are regardless of what others think of you. I'm glad i don't hang out with them anymore though. It's sometimes hard seeing them pass me by while im walking or going to class and pretending as if we never had any relation to one another, but than again it's not so bad. I just see it as im me and their well still fake. It's like that movie Mean Girls. lol Thats how one feels when your in this clique full of basic shitty people including yourself and doing and saying horrible things behind eachothers back, it's just simply not cool. And then yeah when you do finally either leave those people or they leave you, you are stuck alone for a little while, but you meet better and nicer people. Ones who can accept you for you.------
I do though have one incredible friend. Vera is one of the most truthful and faithful friends i have ever had. She's given me support on many decisions i have made in my life regarding guys, life, struggles, pain, everything. We aren't as close as we used to be, but we've never faded apart. We always have no problem picking up where we left off and can smile and not argue about stupid random stuff. Sh'e had it hard and it keeps getting harder, but she's never given up. She's strong and she's hopeful. She's got something that seperates her from all the rest=)