What am I supposed to do when my whole world is slipping through my fingers?

Everything I've fought so hard to get is just slipping away from me.

Now you want to help ? Where were you when I was getting hurt? Or cutting, throwing up and getting high to escape the pain? No where to be found. Now I'm too far in, I no longer ask for your help.

Are you all alone? Do you stand in a room full of people and feel alone? Do you know what it's like to have a family but they're never there? Do you wear a smile as a mask? I do..

I don't even have a family to depend on anymore <\3.

I just want to be happy..

She's distraught,
She can not cope.
Real tears,
False wishes and hope.

I'm breaking,
I'm crumbling.
I'm done trying,
I'm gone.

"I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside.."

-Girl, Interrupted

When you see her smile, know something is wrong.
When you see her cry, know she's breaking down.
When you find her dead, know she gave up too fast.