It's been 2 years since i've been so depressed that i can't move. why now? why again? Will it ever end?

I have come up with an answer to all my pain...God just hates me!

I just don't get why is has to happen to me

I just don't get the point in life... i really don't

The only way to describe how i feel is to die

I think some of us are born to commit suicide to teach others to keep living

He used me the first time, and this time I'm gonna be strong and not let him

The thing i hate the most about him leaving was that i wasn't strong enough to stand on my own

I have the power to end my life, I have the pills in my hand and i glass of whiskey in the other. Bottoms up!

I just don't want to do this anymore...any of it