This is so wrong why can't i stop doing it

I'm in love with the guy i made in my mind not who you really are

I hate 100% of him so why do i love him

I'm ready to let go and i know no one will stop me

The worst thing I could do
is fall back in love with you

and i did, i love you

I can't believe i let him hurt me...again

I know its not ok to hate people, but i will hate you always and forever

It took me two times of getting hurt to finally realize he really doesnt give a shit about me

I want to destroy him, till he can't get back up...just tell me how

I am the worst person on this earth and the only way to fix it is to die....i'm just gonna die then