Sometimes I run outside in the middle of a thunderstorm, drop to my knees, throw my hands to the sky and let out the cry of a woman with no faith yelling at who and what i don't believe in. I know it wont help, I cant do anything else.

My message to God:
I hate you for not existing. When we need you the most thats when everything falls apart. Its time to face the facts, we're all on our own.

Theres something to be said
for the power that he has
the way he gets in my head
how i want him so bad
how messed up it is
how bad im gonna break
sin on his lips
god i want a taste

But with him
It doesn't feel like I know if should
It hurts more then I thought it would
And I walk down memory lane with you
Much more often than I'm supposed to
And it hurts babe, like you wouldn't believe
Cause I don't feel when he kisses me

Theres some texts that I cant erase
Some conversations Ill always save
Ill look into his eyes
And Ill see your face
I wont kiss him in your basement
I cant open up to him
He'll touch my face
And i'll imagine your hands

How far I’ve fallen into you
The things I would be willing to do
To just have that feeling one more time
Just for a moment for you to be mine

(From my poem, Not What I'm Supposed to Do, check out!)

Why cant you be that man
The one i've always dreamed of
Why can't I be that girl
The one you'll always love
And why do you capture my heart
My essence, my being, my soul
Why do you love her
When its my heart you stole

I feel like I'm falling again
And baby, I don't want to go back
I need you to be a reason
To put on a smile and laugh
So please, don't leave
Don't let this end
All I'm asking for love
Is for you to be my friend.

I want to paint a picture
The most beautiful thing you've seen
The sky would be clear
This picture would be clean

I would paint it of butterflies
Of purple skies
Of black horses
And the most beautiful lies

Have faith My lonely angel
Its saying keep holding on
It doesnt mean a thing
Just try to stay strong

Rest your head my lonely angel
Escape into your dreams
Ill never forget my love
Not all angels have wings