Wow, i really screwed up this time. i mean...way more than ussual. i just want to apoligize to my family and friends for all the hell and heart ache i'm putting you through.

I never believed people when they said your life could change in a heartbeat, i wish i would have listened. that would of changed everything.

Mom: How long r u gonna wait 4 him 2 call?
me: I'm not waiting 4 him.
mom: okay goodnight

.....i'd wait forever.

If you love me, you'd be here for me when i need you...why aren't you here?

Im gonna stay strong and pretend i dont need you, when its really you i need the most.

You always tell me you'll make it up to me...but not this time. im not gonna let you. </3

Yeah, I'm here. Where are you? Do you even know I exist anymore, or are you just a figment of my over active imagination?

And I will always remember you, as you are right now to me.

I walk through the hallway
holding my wrists
i hope no1 will see me like this
he asks me "is there any more?"
with tears in my eyes i simply reply, what did you think bracelets were for?

I cause myself physical pain so I won't feel the emotional pain you give me...or at least so I can forget about that pain for a little. Anything for a moment of peace.