Bleeding, pleading, dreaming, screaming, slicing, dicing, yet I still I bleed it out, over and over and over again...

I'm smiling and grinning, but can you see why? Can you see the blood staining tears on my face? Can you see the gun pressing to my lips? Or can you only see the fake smiling, lying me, that I make you believe?

I'm not normal... Seeing death, and hearing screams, I'm falling simply, tearing at the seams...

Tears falling down, my heart hits the ground, I'm fading faster, deeper into the darkness. Will he be able to catch me one final time?

Sitting here amazed and dazed. Could I really have slipped this far?

I've fallen so far from grace, each day just like a slap in the face. Will time allow me to climb out of this place?

Things are moving that shouldn't be moving, my vision is shifting from dark to light, I can't breath and my heart beat is racing, what's going on? what's happening to me?

My head aches and my heart breaks with every beat it makes. I only wonder how much more of this that I can take...

What must I do
to make you see that
my love for you
is completely true?

They say "It will get better soon" but I'm not sure if my sanity will stay until "soon"...