Black is all around me and I can't see,
A safe way out of this for you or for me.
Hold our breath, we'll go together,
I'm dragging you down on my last try.
One last breath before goodbye

My childhood dreams I can't really see,
Everything I am is all that I wished I'd never be.
I feel myself pushing and pulling away,
I can feel it, today's the day I'm going to cave.

I breathe and move in pre- written motions.
All of the time trying to hide my emotions.
Please somebody end this misery,
When I look around pain and sadness is all I see.

Drown me in that clear drink,
Cause I don't even want to think.
If it doesn't make my mind still,
I'm gonna scream loud and shrill.
I FEEL LIKE I"M DYING INSIDE,
ALL I HAVE LEFT IS A AN EMPTY SOUL, HEART, AND MIND.

Everything in life is a blur,
A welling disease that has no cure.
Letting it in hurts,
Locking it out is so much worse.
It is getting so hard to keep breathing because everything around me is so misleading.

Everything inside of me is screaming and ripping apart, I can feel my lungs filling with blood and gore. My whole life is being torn apart. Why do I smile then? Do I honestly not care?

Everything is caught in a haze,
It coats everything in my nights and days,
It's causing a craze,
I can't take it anymore,
It's like I'm a rat following a trap in a never ending maze...

A long time ago I died inside.
Leaving myself with no place to hide.
My insides are vulnerable, my feelings are raw.
I don't know what to do this may be the last straw.
New poem "I want to die, cross my heart promise it's not a lie"