I try my hardest not to resort to
cutting...

Nikki, i am really sorry for what i did.
and i swear on everything i meant what i said...

I've now f*^ed up and lost my best friends trust.
i have been trying to gain it back and I'll wait...

I wish you knew me and understood what i was...
that you knew the turmoil on the inside and not...

~~i don't know what category to put this in, but...
so many emotions run through your mind...

Was it worth it?
all that drinking and puking just to forget a...