I hide under my covers,
cradling my knees to my chest...

*The original title was, "If Only"*
Tonight I'll tell you I love you...

I sat there with tears rolling down my face.
I felt the blood throbbing in my wrists...

Coming home at 3:00 am
smelling like cigarettes...

As the angels watch over us,
We can be sure we're safe...

And now it's 3:50 AM
iCan'tSleep...

Paper and pen.
It's all I need...

I feel it,
The itching and throbbing in my veins once again...

That redneck.
The one with that sweet smile...

***** This is dedicated to Jefferson, Jackson, and...
Their parents and mom's grandfather were actually...

Often, I look up at the stars and
wonder if you're doing the same...

If I were to die tomorrow,
Would you know...