I'm too caught up in you to walk away, but if I did, would you chase me?

& you are just an illusion, but I love you and will never let go of you

The worst part is I don't even give a shit anymore.

I never know when I do something wrong, because for you everything I ever say or do is wrong!

I close my eyes and I'm afraid to open them again, because that's how you disappeared the first time, and I wouldn't be surprised if that would happen again, because it's only you.

I'd give everything if I had anything

The countdown begins as I think of all the things I'll miss
Today's the day to see if my dream will fly or fall into the abyss
I put on a brave smile, although I know it's fake
I say to myself "No matter if I break"

I'm too strong to stay here, yet too weak to leave
I'm too strong to hold it, yet too weak to breathe

What if by yes I meant no?
What if by stay I meant go?
What if I don't live to please you?
What if for me it isn't that easy?

I sacrifice everything and I get nothing in return
Except for a bandage that has already been worn