I want to smile, but I just can't

Love of my life, my soulmate
You're my best friend
Part of me like breathing
Now half of me is left

I don't know anything at all
Who am I to say you love me
I don't know anything at all
And who am I to say you need me

SEE I'M SMILING. too bad it's completely fake

ALRIGHT I GIVE UP, you win... congrats... you broke my heart

I haven't smiled today,
or yesterday
or last week
or last month
or maybe i can't remember

I just wish someone would care

I wish you'd just tell me you were proud of me and you love me

I love how you pick me up when i'm sad
and lean me on your chest,
how you pick up my chin
and simply kiss my lips and say i love you

I dont know what to say,
i don't know what to feel
all i know is everything around me seems perfectly real.

Mommy and Daddy,

i'm sorry i'm a screw up, and i'm sorry i'm not the little girl you wanted