Is it bad when i dont even know my self anymore? That i dont recoqnize the qirl in the mirror. that ive become my worst enemy. that you had a part in this? And i still love you?

You fell in love with the qirl who looks like she has nothinq to hide, the qirl who always smiles. The qirl who says oh nothinqs wronq, when nothinqs riqht. I hate how you love me for somethinq im not.

Unless you feel the way i feel, or have been threw the thinqs i have, dont say you understand, dont tell me you can help me, if you cant even figure out why im like this.

When i see you with her, i smile.
Why? because i cant help to want to hide
my tears.. Why? because when your happy,
it makes me happy. Even when the smiles for her...i stilll have too..no matter how it hurts..ill never let you know.

&& to be completely honest, yes everything right now, is completly wrong,
nothings right, i need you, i miss you.
I cant be me, with out you.♥

Dont talk to me because im trying to let you go not loving you's harder than you know. ):
-Escape the Fate

If i was to tell you the truth.
Would you still be here?
That your the reason for
all of my tears.
The reason im unhappy,
For you dont belong to me.
Would you want to hear?
Im begging to be free?

Theres no point in crying, the tears wont bring you back to me.

Ive Realized, the one you love the most, is the one thats going to hurt you the most.

My backs up aqainst a wall, my hands held up hiqh,
ill hold my head up twords the sky.
I said enouqh was enouqh
it was just to much.
I was tired of havinq a voice, and beinq told to hush.